I love being a mom. Very much. But there are some things that change once you become a mom, and there are things that I do look back at and I miss. They change from time to time, but at this particular moment, this is what I miss most:
1. Being able to look down and see my toes. Ooohhh, long gone are those days because nowadays, there is this ‘pot’ that stands in the way. I seriously need to do something about it. For real this time. Because my major problem in the past (and present actually) is chronic procrastination syndrome combined with non-discipline syndrome. *sigh*. Plus I need to really focus on eating clean and not giving all manner of excuses.
2. Being able to be punctual to anywhere I’m going. I don’t know why, but it’s just not possible for me to be on time for anything nowadays, whether I’m going with the kids or not. When not going with them, there are like 1001 things that must be done URGENTLY before I leave the house. No matter how early I wake up to prepare, I still end up getting out of the house maybe an hour or so after I should have left. Sometimes I just have to forego that plan altogether. And now when I’m going with both boys? Mayooooooo! Don’t even ask!
3. Buying stuff for myself. Those days, I used to go shopping and buy me all good. Nowadays, I go to buy stuff for myself and I instead come back home with little boy’s stuff and only a Tyler Perry movie for myself (Kate Simba and Kobie Macharia you made me go get this movie). I don’t even know why I do so yet I’ve always thought I’m one of those organized people who don’t do impulse buying or those ones who stick to the items on the budget list. I guess I’m learning new things about myself.
4. Sleep. And sleeping non-interrupted till morning at that. That should actually have been number one. Enough said.
5. Hanging out with my girlfriends. Waaahhh, si I miss those days. When we would paint the town red without the least bit of care in the world. Days that I thought would last forever ! Even though I’m still in touch with my girls, we don’t meet as often as I would like to, or like we used to. Life changes and you just have to accept it. I have.
6. Speaking of which, let me add number 6 even though I had said 5 things I missed most. Chama was kawa, you know – just one of the normal things that I would do. But nowadays, chama is all that I look forward to. Asin I get that feeling of a kid excited about the school trip the following day. I almost don’t sleep that night as the excitement is usually too much. I get that feeling because it’s the time I get to meet all the gals and spend some good bonding time. We meet every two months, and I can tell you that that’s the only social event I look forward to in this my life nowadays. I remember there was this time due to unavoidable circumstances chama was cancelled and I felt a lump in my throat accompanied by tear drop from my eye. I was so disappointed. And whenever I get home from chama, I start counting days to the next one.
And by the way, is it just our chama –where we meet at 2pm and bond and bond and bond, then at around 7.30pm is when we suddenly start panicking because it’s already gotten late and we haven’t even started discussing the real agenda of the day, then we hurriedly discuss the agenda for like 20 minutes, then say our goodbyes for another 3 hours or so as we ask the host to prepare more thermoses’ of tea whilst wrapping ourselves in warm shawls and blankets? Does that happen in other chama’s or it’s just ours?